you strum the strings of my imagination.

Monday, June 25, 2007

We were as one, babe
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you will always be mine
Now you want to be free
So I'm letting you fly
'Cause I know in my heart, babe
Our love will never die, no

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl, don't you know you can't escape me
Oh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way, you're never gonna shake me
Oh darling,
'Cause you'll always be my baby

I ain't gonna cry, no
I won't beg you to stay
If you're determined to leave, girl
I will not stand in your way
But inevitably, you'll be back again
'Cause you know in your heart, babe
Our love will never end, no

You and I will always be.
You will always be my baby.

11:44 PM

Saturday, June 23, 2007

Today I've learnt, intellect can't stand by itself. Without an emotional drive, intellect gets you nowhere. I just couldn't.

For the very first time, I walked home from the university today. In spite of the cold weather, in spite of the rain. I just needed to gain some perspective. That failed. I walked home in a seemingly physical and emotional inertia.

"An emotional death" - a term I often use in fictional literature. Who knew what you decipher could happen unto you. Only mine was caused not by society, but one person who represents the entire world.

"Could you live and die at any point of time? Because at that moment, I felt like I did."
This will be the longest moment of my life.

10:36 AM

Friday, June 22, 2007

Share my life
Take me for what I am
Cause I'll never change
All my colours for you
Take my love
I'll never ask for too much
Just all that you are
And everything that you do

I don't really need to look
Very much further
I don't want to have to go
Where you don't follow
I've been holding back again
This passion inside
Can't run from myself
There's nowhere to hide

Don't make me close one more door
I don't wanna hurt anymore
Stay in my arms if you dare
Must I imagine you there
Don't walk away from me
I have nothing, nothing,
Nothing, if I don't have you

You see through
Right to the heart of me
You break down my walls
With the strength of your love
I never knew
Love like I've known it with you
Will our memories survive
One that I can hold onto

I don't really need to look
Very much further
I don't want to have to go
Where you don't follow
I've been holding back again
This passion inside
Can't run from myself
There's nowhere to hide

Your love I remember forever.

10:13 PM

The feeling of heartache
I never knew could last for so long.

If only I could love you a little less,
I'd have you stay with me for always.

I never got to experience the best I ever had.

8:25 PM

I can't.

I was never that strong to begin with. Even the strongest person would collapse if they were placed in my predicament.

I'm sorry, mom.
I might disappoint you again this time.
I'm sorry, but I just can't.

3:21 PM

Thursday, June 21, 2007

It seems that I've been on a dream-streak lately, especially today. I slept my entire day away ever since I got home. It's the weather and my ailment. Such timely occurence when exams are just in a few days. Anyway, just in today itself, I think I had approx 5 dreams? It's scary.

Dreams I had today:

1. I got taken advantage of by a guy I do not recognize or know. (Shall not elaborate on this nightmare)

2. I dreamt of the twits who all seemed to see pass my existence, after which I fell off a tree which I climbed on the 12th floor and ended up at ground level unscathed as I slided down many other trees (weird, I know)

3. I dreamt that I got back together with Sasa

4. I dreamt that Andrea died and I didn't know how to react to it. I didn't think it was real. She had apparently hooked up with someone and an accident occured while she was with that person (I don't know who, or what). The last text I received from her was regarding that person she hooked up with and regarding my girlfriend as well. Just when it struck me that she's really gone, as I felt my body starting to collapse, I received a text from her. So I don't know if she was really dead or not. (But fuck man, ANDREA HUI DON'T YOU EVER DIE ON ME! Your death can kill me.)

5. I dreamt that Summer was all big and grown up and living with me in my room at my old house at Libra Drive. There was a cat meowing at some tree nearby and I meowed for it to come over so as to scare it with Summer's presence (alice, please don't kill me) and of course it did. After which, I took an eraser and threw it at it, only that it didn't hit the cat, but it flew over the roof, and the cat jumped for it thus falling down to the ground as well. I didn't kill it intentionally! I thought it was dead when I went down to check on it. The bottom half of its body was skinless, only organs could be seen. All of a sudden, if that wasn't gross enough, the cat stood up and walked a couple of steps, during which its intestines started spilling out onto the road.

And you wonder why I woke up with a fucking massive headache.

PS: Kathi, sorry I couldn't make it down to study with you today!

1:55 AM

Monday, June 18, 2007

So I was trying to tell Alex a joke but I ended up laughing instead.

1st Joke.

Belle:
ehh! tell you a joke!
Why did the mexican push his wife over the cliff?
Alex:
cause he thought she was a TACO BELL?! HAHAHHAH
Alex:
taco is a mexican food right?
or NOT??!

2nd Joke.

Belle:
What do you call a mexican fireman?
Alex:
BAN-DI-TO
hahaahh
Belle:
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA
WHY!!
Alex:
A BANDAGED TOE>.!!!! haha sounds like tht
HAAHHA

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
OMG HOW CAN ANYONE BE SO RETARDED, SERIOUSLY?
I swear I'm seriously out of breath. I can't stop laughing! I think Sem's going to kill me for disrupting her skype conversation soon. Hahahahahaha!
Alex is such a retard.

12:41 AM

I was doing my M&C powerpoint presentation when I came across some pictures that could make one salivate a reservoir and of course, I shared my joy with ALEX..

alex; says:
I KNW WHO HE IS
alex; says:
BUT HIS NAME IS UHMM
alex; says:
huge jackman.
alex; says:
okay wait
my beautiful inevitable says:
HAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHA
alex; says:
sounds funny
alex; says:
HUGE
alex; says:
HOW DO YOU S{PELL
my beautiful inevitable says:
HAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA
alex; says:
SPELL*
alex; says:
HUE??!
i knw its like 4/5 letters.

AHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA
HOLY MARY AND JOSEPH!!
OMG THIS IS THE FUNNIEST SHIT!
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAAHAHAHA

Alex surely does makes my nights!
HAHAHAHAHA!

12:25 AM

Sunday, June 17, 2007

When you need to find a reason to not study:

001. Real Name - Isabelle

002. Nickname - Belle

003. Single or taken - Taken

004. Astrological Sign - Virgo

005. Male or Female - Female

006. Elementary School - St. Margaret's

007. Ipod - Green Mini

008. How many buddies on your Friendster list - 511

009. Friendster name - Belle

010. Hair Color - Black with indigold highlights

012. Hair Long or Short - In between

014. Eye Color - Dark Brown/Black

015. Are you health freak - No

016. Height - Sensitive issue

017. Do you have a crush on someone - I think so

018. Do you like yourself - I'm alright

020. Think you're awesome? - Sometimes

021. Piercings - Ears, Labret

022. Tattoo - Two

024. Surgery - Neck

025. First piercing - 2 years old

026. First best friend - Gail, 1994

027. First Award - No bastard clue

028. First Sport You Joined - Swimming

029. First pet - Can't remember

030. First vacation - Should be Malaysia

031. First Concert - SYF, when I was 6

032. First love - Emily

*Favorites

033. Favorite movie - Right now, The Family Stone

034. Favorite tv show - Friends

035. Colors - Black and Green

036. Music - Indie & Alternative

039. Drink - Pokka Green Tea

040. Body part not on the face - Hair

041. Cartoon - Avatar

042. Favorite piece of clothing - Skinny Jeans

043. Brand Of Clothing - No preferences

044. What do you sleep with - My pillow

045. Favorite School - Trinity College?

046. Favorite Animal(s) - Dogs

047. Favorite Book - Anything Sidney Sheldon

048. Favorite Magazine(s) - Don't read 'em

049. Food - Lamb

050. I'm drinking - N'thin

052. I'm about to - Complete my M&C project

053. Listening to - Westlife - If I Let You Go

055. Waiting For - The arrival of my 3rd month

056. Watching - The laptop screen?

057. Wearing - Big Tee, Shorts, Cardigan

*Your Future

058. Want Kids - Two

059. Want to Get Married - Definitely

060. Career in Mind - Psychoanalytical Psychologist.

068. Lips or Eyes - Eyes

069. Hugs or Kisses - Kisses

070. Shorter or Taller - Taller

072. Romantic or Spontaneous - Romantic

073. Nice stomach or nice arms - Both of course

074. Sensitive or Loud - Sensitive

075. Hook-up or Relationship - Relationship

076. Sweet or Caring - Both again.

077. Trouble Maker or Hesitant - None?

*Have you ever

078. Kissed a Stranger - Yes

079. Drank bubbles - Yes

080. Lost glasses/contacts - Of course

081. Ran Away From Home - Almost

082. Broken a bone - Fractured

083. Got an X-ray - Yes

084. Broken a heart - No doubt

085. Someone Broke Yours - Yes

086. Turned Someone Down - Yes

087. Cried When Someone Died - Not yet

088. Cried at school - Yes

*Do You Believe In

089. God - Yes

090. Miracles - I suppose

091. Love at first sight - Yes

093. Aliens - No

094. Magic - No

095. Heaven - Yes

096. Santa Claus - No

097. Sex on the first date - No

098. Kissing on the First Date - Yes

099. Angels - Yes

100. Is there someone you want to be with right now? - Yes

1:27 PM

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

For the first time, in a long time,
I received snail mail!

Even better,
it was posted via the sea.
It was stamped
"Insufficiently prepaid for air transmission."

Hahahaha how adorable is that?
I love her! (:

7:48 PM

Sunday, June 03, 2007

I had a wonderful Sunday with a wonderful bunch of people. (:

Chapel Street and St Kilda.